There have been times when I felt overwhelmed by my anxiety. But for some time now that’s been better, or at least manageable. Lately it seems that life is what tends to be overwhelming. It’s not any one thing in particular, actually most of the time it is simply the accumulation of things that is overwhelming to the point that I just want to run. Running is the way I cope (or not cope) when I am overwhelmed.
About a month ago I was so stressed about several things; like money, health issues, house issues, money, my son, legal issues and oh yeah money. I started feeling like I couldn’t breath and like I was having palpitations. I tried to reduce some of my stress (if only that was simple) but it didn’t seem to help. But, as always with me I just kept going. Then I started having chest pains, so I decided that perhaps I needed to go to the emergency room-so I did. They did some tests, consulted with a cardioligist, did some more test and I learned what a code 10 is (chest pains). But after all that there were no conclusive answers. So, since then I have had more tests-a cardiac CT, echocardiogram, another EKG and I have seen the cardioligist, who has ordered another test, an Adenosine test.
Through all this the one thing I have not had is anxiety, but I’m not sure I have the energy to be anxious. All this would seem enough to deal with…but no. We recently had a large rain storm here in California and I had flooding in my garage. So I have been moving things that were in the water. I had an interesting experience, I was moving extra floor tiles out to dry and I was short of breath, having palpitations and was a little dizzy-so I learned that if you stay bent over it is easier to deal with the dizziness, or you are just closer to the ground. Now, I don’t recommend that anyone try that, but for today it got me through and sometimes that just has to be enough.